number one career with a bullet

Given my current (major) career doubts, a few friends -- bless 'em -- have commented that my results (specifically the magazine I edit) are OK. Problem is...it's not my ability that's the problem. It’s my motivation and (for lack of a better word) joy. Makes me think: my career so far, in terms of achievement, has been OK. Not stellar but reasonable, on a CV at least. I wonder what I might achieve if I found something I enjoyed more often than not. Like delivering wine orders. Driving around town...listening to radio...happy recipients...stopping off at bakery for lunch...praise for a mediocre job adequately done...sigh...